Shit Happens

Well it happens to me a lot more often than I’d like.

I am currently pooping, which is something I do not enjoy in the least.  If i could excrete waste in any other way I would do it, but alas I cannot.  About a month or 2 ago, I got a colonoscopy and  an endoscopy.  Then I needed another test where I got a camera pill.  The doctor never called me and a nurse ended up calling me and sorta explained that they didn’t really find anything wrong with me. Gave me something to take.  But its not working.

When I poo, I get sick. I lose energy like crazy.  I still get sick a lot and if I don’t get doctor’s notes I won’t graduate.

Don’t wanna shoot up

Sometimes i just don’t want to give myself a shot.  Its that time again, gotta get my medicine in but i dont want to mess up.  last time i messed up, i bled a lot and it hurt a lot.

Physical Therapy Step Up

Yesterday, physical therapy was a lot tougher than I expected.  Started out with a warm up walk, 15 min on the treadmill.  I went fast, maybe too fast cause I got tired quickly.  Then I upped the leg press to 120 lbs.  Did 2 sets of 15 for everything.  By the end I was exhausted, and I was already getting sore.  When I got home my small joints were really sore, my fingers and toes.  This morning I felt it in the pectoral region and my triceps.  My legs were extra sore as well as my hips. I need to stretch.

Blogging

Learning about Blogging in school today.  And I am seeing how bad I am at Blogging.  I thought I was bad at it cause I don’t update it as often as I would like.  I also thought my writing was sometimes a little childish and ranty.  Overall, I still need to practice Blogging.

School (behind)

I’m currently in school, at the moment of writing this post, and I am behind in my english class.  Luckily I am in my Sound Design for Film Class.  I am not behind in that one.  In english, I have 2 papers behind, but all late work is due Thursday, I will have it done by then.  I am pretty much done with the 1st paper and i can crank out the 2nd one tonight.

A lot of times, i start out school great, then i get behind, then it becomes quicksand.

Bad shot

Bad shot

I messed up a little on my shot the other night. it hurt, and as soon as i pulled the needle out, blood came gushing out. this tie I didn’t al most faint. i stopped the bleeding with in 5 minutes, but I bleed a lot more than I expected. usually I don’t bleed this much, I think i hit a vain or something. its fine now, although my butt is still a little sore. This was done with my off hand, my left hand.

Been busy

Had a fun few weekends since my last post.  Had a wedding that I wasn’t hungover for the next day.  Got mistaken for a 16 year old again.  Then had a 10 grade school reunion over the next weekend.  I finally pooped, which is great.  My bowels are as back to normal as they can ever be.  I just started physical therapy for the KS.  I am not flexible at all. And my right leg is even less flexible than my left.  It was light but strenuous today, its all do able and I don’t think i over worked, since I can get sore.  Went on a strange treadmill, anti gravity, had to wear special pants and stuff.

My parents don’t want me to keep this blog.

I’m 24 years old and my older sister still tells on me.  So I blocked her from my facebook.  I am so sick of her tattling on me, she’s 4 years older, married and out of the house, yet she still tells on me.

My parents fear that employers won’t hire me if I am open out my medical issues.  I don’t want to hide, I’m not hiding this.  I’m pretty sure its illegal to reject someone for a job if they have some medical issues.

This is just unwanted stress, because it goes back to me thinking they are ashamed of me, or not ashamed of me as long as nobody knows I have Klinefelter’s.  It just means that they are faking support.  This is when I get depressed, when my family doesn’t support me.  Well you can’t choose your family right?

Insomnia… you won again

I was exhausted yesterday.  It felt like a ran a marathon, yet I barely left the house.  I went to bed around 11pm and set my alarm for 9am hoping I’d 10 hours of sleep.  Well I woke up at 5am, not the worst but I really need some sleep.  Its been tough for me to get the right amount of sleep, I usually go to bed too late and only have time for 4 to 6 hours, but I’ve been going to bed before midnight, which doesn’t happen very often.

Time for me to hop my Xanax will work, and get back to sleep.  I’l wake up at 9am, shower and hopefully I will be well enough to go to school.

Bad afternoon

I feel really bad right now.  My hands hurt a lot.  Its tiring to type.  My wrists feel like jelly.  I have a sharp pain in my tummy, I feel dehydrated again even though I’ve been drinking lots of water.  I’m really weak right now.  Getting dizzy again.  I’m irritated by a lot of things at the moment.

My dad said something that offended me.  My mom asked me to move these bulky heavy chairs, and I was getting up to go do it right away, but because I feel so sick today it took me a while.  So my mom thought I just wasn’t moving, and I got annoyed. Then my dad said something like “go now” even though he was in the room and could see me struggle getting up.  As i brought the bulky chair back, i was in pain and my dad said something like “better you than me” as if my joint pain is nothing compared to his.  He’s twice my age, and my joint pain is worse.  I think I’m gonna be bed ridden at his age.  I’m young, my joints shouldn’t hurt like this.  I guess its time to attempt to take out the garbage now, before I get too tired.

It sucks when your sick but their are no visible symptoms.  If I were puking all over the place then people would see that I am sick.

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